OH MY DEAR SON I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU TILL ETERNITY. I LOVE AS MUCH AS I LOVE SUSHMITHA

I never want anything in life anymore. I have the award for lifetime. I have always tried and put forth efforts in every relationship as a mother, as a daughter,as a wife. I get reprimanded everytime. It hurts me me because when you are genuine and when what you want is just recognition of your work it matters.

           So when I found today words written by Anil(son) on the wall " You are wonderfull mom. I love you. He had written these when he came to karkala last time. I felt I got the award I wanted.I got tears in my eyes. My heart was full.I can face any difficulty.Oh my dear son you are far away studying but I miss you and love you both(sushmitha and you) till eternity. I miss you so much I see you in every person of your age. 

I BELIEVE WE NEED NOT GO TO TEMPLE TO SEE GOD. WHENEVER YOU HELP A PERSON IN DIFFICULTY YOU ARE PERFORMING POOJA.

I like to work for a cause. I don't believe in going to temples to see God. Because I feel God dwells in the heart of human beings and whenever you help a needy person you are performing a pooja.God does not need a golden door. Whenever I see any person who is in difficulty I try to help them as much as I can. Because I know how helpless a person can be in their difficulty.My kitchen helper was not well. I took her to hospital and found that she had high sugar level also also her chest X-ray showed she had sever chest infection. I got her treated. Doctor told her to come daily so that he can check her sugar level and bring it down. Next there was another girl who needed dental treatment. I took her to KMC Manipal because root canal treatment in karkala very costly. About 3000 for one teeth. She had many cavities and fill ups.I  feel whenever a person stays with us then they are our children and our responsibility. But they don't feel the same regard. They have hurt me many times and I have always forgiven them whether they are nurses or my mother.
Sometimes when I go to some function and have lunch I remember Sushmitha and feel sad. I see children of Sushmi's age and feel some kind of heart ache.