MY ANGEL DAUGHTER LEFT ME

SUSHMITHA WAS SLEEPING ONLY FOR 3 CONTINUOUS DAYS .  SHE MAKES SOME KIND OD SOUND WHEN SHE IS IN DIFFICULTY. I KNEW SOMETHING WAS WRONG.ON MAY 25TH SHE HAD SOME BREATHING DIFFICULTY AT 10.30 NIGHT. IT BECAME WORSE. SUDDENLY SHE WAS OK AT 11.40 . I WENT TO WASH ROOM . WE CHANGED
SIDES. THEN SUDDENLY SHE TOOK  A DEEP BREATH. THEN SHE BROUGHT HER TONGUE OUT AND ROLLED HER EYEBALLS UP. THAT WAS LAST.YOU ARE MY WORLD BABY.THEN I CALLED MY HUSBAND AND WE CONTACTED HER NURSE WHO PUTS RICETUBE, SHE CAME AND TOLD US EVERYTHING WAS OVER.
          MAY BE SHE COULD SUFFER NO LONGER. HER STRENGHTH WAS JUST WEAK. SHE HAD DIFFICULTY IN SLEEPING.
       SENDING HER AWAY WAS THE MOST WORST PART, LOT OF PEOPLE CAME IN. SOME PEOPLE WERE AFRAID BECAUSE THEY THOUGHT SHE DIED BECAUSE OF CORONA. I CAN'T BRING YOU BACK MY GIRL. BUT YOU ARE MY SOUL.
       YOU ARE PAINFREE NOW. SHE WAS PUT TO FIRE IN OUR ANCESTRAL PROPERTY EVENTHOUGH MANY PEOPLE WERE AGAINST IT.(THINKING SHE DIED OF CORONA).
      SHE HAS BIRTHDAY  NEXT MONTH. IF SHE WAS NORMAL SHE WOULD BE VERY BEAUTIFULL.   

FACING REALITY AND SITUATIONS THAT GO AGAINST

I thought I will die for my husband and live for him only.  But when you are genuine and sometimes he criticises you publicly you feel hurt. I love to go out and he restricts . According to him I cannot go to Manipal or Mangalore. My mom raised me well and we lived the way we wanted. At home the nurses and staff are angry for no reason. There is no happy atmosphere. Sushmitha can feel the negative energy. I have lot of house keeping staff at home. Because Sushmitha has feeding till 12 AM. So they take shifts and two people every day once in three days equals to six people. Sometimes she is awake at night so I need help again and there also I need shifts. It is not easy to look after bedridden
             I feel broken down when my husband lets me down. Mentally it breaks you. Relationship will not survive nor me. I cannot change him for sure. I have to let it go.But that is not easy. He is angry and remains angry. IF THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO THEN ACCEPT THINGS AS THEY ARE AND LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT. I MISS YOU AMMA.I NEED YOUR STRENGTH.

MEMORIES

MY DAUGHTER IN LAW AND MYSELF

    MY  DAD

MY HUSBAND WITH SHOP STAFF

MEMORIES

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                                                   Sushmitha with her grandmother 

                                            Sushmitha's Father Ganapathi Pai

corona lockdown world wide

The situation in India is very scaring. people are locked down in their own homes.  I am worried for Sushmitha . What if there is any emergency? hope not.