I thought I will die for my husband and live for him only. But when you are genuine and sometimes he criticises you publicly you feel hurt. I love to go out and he restricts . According to him I cannot go to Manipal or Mangalore. My mom raised me well and we lived the way we wanted. At home the nurses and staff are angry for no reason. There is no happy atmosphere. Sushmitha can feel the negative energy. I have lot of house keeping staff at home. Because Sushmitha has feeding till 12 AM. So they take shifts and two people every day once in three days equals to six people. Sometimes she is awake at night so I need help again and there also I need shifts. It is not easy to look after bedridden
I feel broken down when my husband lets me down. Mentally it breaks you. Relationship will not survive nor me. I cannot change him for sure. I have to let it go.But that is not easy. He is angry and remains angry. IF THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO THEN ACCEPT THINGS AS THEY ARE AND LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT. I MISS YOU AMMA.I NEED YOUR STRENGTH.
I feel broken down when my husband lets me down. Mentally it breaks you. Relationship will not survive nor me. I cannot change him for sure. I have to let it go.But that is not easy. He is angry and remains angry. IF THERE IS NOTHING I CAN DO THEN ACCEPT THINGS AS THEY ARE AND LEARN TO LIVE WITH IT. I MISS YOU AMMA.I NEED YOUR STRENGTH.
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