Mom Is Angry

Now nurse Mallika has left. The nurse who has come has trouble doing the standing and lifting. So I call the house-keeping staff Laxmi for assistance. But this makes mom angry. Laxmi is afraid because it makes mom angry. I asked mom that since for standing we need help can watering the garden can be done at 3 o"clock but she tells me they dry if it is left so soon so she will water herself. and then she told Laxmi not to water the plants anymore because she is going to do herself. I cannot do these things alone and if I call them it makes mom angry. If I give feed by mouth that makes her angry too. Mummy does not like me trying for my child. Anitha tells while I want to try everhything for my child mom thinks otherwise. She thinks I am simply troubling her. Now physiotherapist Watson sir is not coming and in his place Pranav Jindal is coming. My friend Malini told he is very good and cured many patients and his speciality is rural rehabilitation. He stated using muscle stimulator for mobility. He tells he can undrestand my concern for Sushmitha but if we constantly hold Sushmitha's head she will not get neck control. He told me to order Tilt table for standing. Sushmitha has this coughing sensation all the time and now she has sound with the coughing sensation. I want to concentrate on Sushmitha but ther is no happy atmosphere in the house. I constantly remind myself of a mobile message send by my cousin " A strong woman is one who inspite of all the difficulties still tells I am okay". I look at my child and say I wiil bear anything for you. You are mine and I will never let you go. The thought that you can recognise as a mother is enough for me to spend my lifetime. Sometimes I am afraid of tomorrow. My husband is facing lot of tensions in his business. One of his worker fell from the roof when we took contract of some construction work. He was not wearing the safetybelt. Now is struggling between life and death. He has a deceased child. My husband tells that makes him morally weak.