ATTACHED TO SUSHMITHA'S BELONGINGS

I am very much attached to Sushmitha's belongings. I have preserved her dresses,her books, her hair clips her cycle, her dools. I don't like if anybody(anychildren) come home and play with her doll.There is a alteration going on in godown near our house and a worker brought his daughter along with him. My husband wanted to donate the cycle to that girl. But I told him I want to keep her belongings the way they are. Actually I have preserved Anil's notes also. People don't understand my feelings. Sometimes they ask silly questions like whether she can take food or she can turn over. When I say she cannot it is so difficult and that is which they don't  understand. Sushmitha is awake at night now. She gets up at night 12  o'clock and sleeps  in the afternoon 12 o'clock.Sometimes I stay awake for her sake till 2 AM and sometimes I cannot. I am having heel pain from 2, 3 months. I am taking physiotherapy, hot water dip, and calcium tablets on doctor's prescription.Life seems empty. There is so much unhappiness at home. People quarrel for silly reasons. I try to forgive everybody and try to see everybody is happy. Then I say to sushmtiha I do this only for you my child, only for you.