YOU HAVE FOUGHT FOR YOUR LIFE TO BE WITH ME AND I WANT TO JUSTIFY IT BY BEING WITH YOU ALL MY LIFE

I never knew being a mother is so wonderfull. She has been to hospital and come back. She looks alert. I feel so happy. She laughed at me today. For the last 2 months she had lot of choriformas movements. she surely had lot of discomfort. When I approached Dr Pushpa Kini she first tested her for urine infection and she had it. She prescribed antibiotic sepmax for ten days. Still the movements didn't stop and Dr Pushpa Kini told me she wants to start medicine serenace. But Sushmitha should be hospitalised since the medicine epival ( for fits) and serenace(for choriform movements) are not friendly. It might increase fits so she want to observe for three days. We admitted Sushmitha on 14nth and tablet serenace was started. And I think the change or the medicine did much good to her. She was awake and alert in hospital. I think the change in atmosphere is what did good to her. She was sleeping in side and she started noticing our movements. Girija our nurse was making papaya juice. First she cut it and later put in mixer. She was noticing everything. and coming back home I saw her to be more a wake and morew alert. Today when my husbads friend Gopalkrishna gave command amma nodu she correctly turned to look at me. This she did for two or three times.

SUSHMITHA HAS A LOT OF COUGH REFLEX(UNWANTED MOVEMENTS)

Sushmitha has lot of cough reflex(piriformas movements). She looks like she is in lot of discomfort. I am not able to do anything to lessen her discomfort. Before in sidelying she used to feel better. But now it doesn't seem like that. She is unable to do the swallowing nor can she concentrate on commands. r I took her to Dr Pushpa Kini. First when I reached Manipal Dr Prashanth, Dr Yogish, Dr Raghuvanshi, Dr kashyap examined Sushmitha and informed Dr Pushpa Kini about Sushmitha's condition. She came immediately examined Sushmitha and told me there is nothing to worry and it looks like it is some form of piriformas movements. She told me that since Sushmitha's weight has also increased She will increase levera morning dose from one tablet to two. It will take care of unwanted movements she told. But she told me to get her shunting checked once. Not that she fears anything is wrong. But it has been one and half years( after shunting) so better get checked once. Immediately I called Dr Muralidhar Pai and I got a appointment on !3nth august(friday) in the afternoon.We took her in car eventhough it takes more tha one hour. He came and examined her and assured me there was no problem in shunting at all. Then he saw Sushmitha in discomfort and i told him this is the only problem I have now.He told me that he wants nurologist to examine Sushmitha and then neurologist Dr Shivanand Shenoy and Dr Rakshith ( Who have already seen Sushmitha in Manipal). They told Sushmitha has Piriformas movements which are because of brain damage. They prescribed tablet serenace. They told me to take half tablet twice daily and report to them after fcifteen days,

AWARE OF HER ENVIRONMENT

Sushmitha has started responding. She notices somebody passing or somebody talking in wisper or somebody going upon the stairs. She follows mirror. When we rotate mirror she rotates her eyeballs. She sees the photos of Amma(Mother), Appa(Father), Sushmitha(herself), Mavae, Swathakka, Azzi(Grandmother) correctly. I always call her while I go upon the stairs. Now if she hears my voice she searches . She sees visual toys. She eyetracks them.Very good response to Amma Nodu ( Look at mother). Yesterday I stood in differnt directions but still she looked at me when look at Mother command given. She has improved in swallowing. and mostly she takes about one to one and half glass of rice.She looks at the food with stool. When she hears music she follows the instument and eyetracks them. Turns neck and turns leg sometimes. Her right side vision has improved. She does good eye contact when we talk. Whn we took her in car she was looking both directions. I am happy.

BITTU YAKE HODE(WHY DID YOU LEAVE ME)

Sushmi, Today( on june 23rd) is the day you went into coma. I can no longer hear you say amma. But I will try to do justice for you by being with you as much as I can. Your dresses will remain the place they were. Your school bag which you made ready for going to school that unfatefull day is still in our bed room. Today I will ask you god to return my baby for me. It will take him one minute to do one miracle. My husband has gone to Bangalore on some work. I don't know how much I can improve her But one thing I know I will never give up. I know I cannot do this alone and we need lot of finances also. because these physiotherapy sections are becoming very costly. It is 300/hour. But physiotherapy is the most important one also. She is nowhere stiff. We make her sit and stand. we give streches. We give neck exercises, jaw exercises, we give auditory stimulations. Kanaka madam from speech has taught me oral exercises which improve her swallowing. She has taught me to give commands and to give eyetracking for toys. She tells me I have to take her out atleast once a week which I am doing. I am also asked to show photos of family members. Even that she was giving good response but now it has been diminidhed

LOOSE MOTION AND SORE BUMS

Sushmitha had severe loose motion. She passed watery stools almost 10 times a day. As a result her bum became very sore and reddish. We applied siloderma but still it worsened. Dr pushpa Kini put her on antibiotics sepmax. She passed urine so mom suggested till urination is there I need not worry. Sometimes I get very much worried for Sushmitha and the minute I open up with Dr Pushpa Kini she gives me correct solution to my problem. Same is the case with Anitha. They both understand me very well. I cannot do the stimulations. I bought a new mobile and it has memory card in it. I wish in Sushmitha's brain also if it was possible to bring her memories back by putting memory card. I sometimes get worried thinking what other difficulties future has in store for me. I know mom supports me by being in my house even though she is reluctant to personally supervise Sush. I don't know what i will do without her. Sushmitha is becoming older and the nurses who come to treat her feel it difficult to lift her.