SUSHMITHA HAS DIFFICULTY IN TURNING HER GAZE FROM LEFT TO RIGHT

Sushmitha has difficulty in seeing right. She cannot turn her gaze from left to right. Already her doctor Dr Pushpa kini has told me this long back. We are giving her lot of visual stimulation to improve her vision. We give her mirror. She is made to look from left to right and then right to left. This atleast 3,4 times. Then we rotate mirror clockwise so that she rotates her eyeballs likewise. Then we show her visual toys which have colourfull lights, music, and which can move. She tracks. We also vary the speed. Also around bed we put pendrive music along with colourfull toy so that she follows both music and light. Sometimes with music light is shown along with mirror alternatively. We also call from up, stairs, from window. But Sushmitha's nurse Mallika tells me aunty, we seem to remain where we are after giving so much stimulation. We are still doing zeeb dakayi, kannu mucchu, amma nodu, kai gatti hidi(hold hand tight). She was obeying commands earlier. BUT NOW SHE ONLY GIVES EYE CONTACT. I still have some positive points. I will not be weak. When I told Dr Pushpa Kini about this she consoled me Geetha not letting her deterorate further itself is improvement sometimes. Theree are no bed sores and she is nowhere stiff. I agree with her. But time machine please stop for I fear you might have more difficulties in future for my child.Everybody is dissatisfied at home and quarrel for silly things.But I know I need everybody and I will try my best for my child, for my mom for helpers who help me.

I WANT TO SHUT MYSELF AWAY FROM WORLD

I don't know why I feel like not wanting to speak to anybody. Actually I like people and I like to mingle with people. But there are lot of problems. Sushmitha has been sleeping continuously from past 3, 4 days. I cannot stimulate her. Now one nurse Laxmi has gone home to attend her sisters wedding. There is a function in Chethana School. Sometimes I feel obligated because of designation. I told them I want to quit since I want to concentrate wholly on Sushmitha.

SUSHMITHA ATE HALF IDLI ORALLY

Sushmitha ate half idli orally along with coffee. Yesterday I gave a small cup full upma. She responds more to calling from up, from window, around bed. Day before while taking rice feed(grinded) she bit her tongue and she cried taking sound. Tears were rolling from her cheek. She protests by moving her head away from nubuliser during nubulisation. She can feel the medicine going through rice tube even in sleep. Yesterday it was ugadi. Sushmitha loved to have food in my brother in laws house. I gave a little payasam and discontinues when she got cough.

GIVING EYE CONTACT WHILE TALKING & STIMULATION BY VISUAL TOYS

I LOVE YOU NO MATTER WHAT

God gave me a precious gift in the form of a daughter. She filled the house with laughter and also with her talk. We were very happy together because I loved her no matter what. Then he took away her smile, he also took away her talk, She could no longer eat nor could she say amma I loved her still no matter what. She would look at me as if she knew I was her amma. Only that was enough to spend my lifetime I thought Because that was only what I had. I loved her still no matter what. I know she can never be what she used to be nor she was what other children were. But she was mine. Mine alone. I loved her no matter what. Life is not what it used to be. I find it difficult to live, I also find it difficult to die. Life is full of hurdles and difficulties. But I will do it for you my baby, No mater what.People are there with you in your happiness but only few remain with you in your happiness how true the proverb is. But I will never forget the few people who are with me. no matter what.