MY PRECIOUS ANGEL

MY PRECIOUS ANGEL

From the day you were born and the time I held you close

I knew in my joyfull heart you are my precious angel

I love you my precious angel

You are my special LITTLE GIRL

O God please remember it is my little girl's birthday

Memories don't go away

years don't take away the joy you have brought

Or the sadness I feel to see you like this(bedridden)

I miss your voice 

I miss your laughter

O baby, can you hear me?

I hope there is a miracle

Get well soon and we will play

with all your toys and friends all day

You will have so much fun 

I will make sure there is lots of sun

You will chose what to do

My heart still aches with sadness 

MY SILENT TEARS STILL FLOW 

No one really knows 

They say that time is a healer

And life has to go on

BUT MY LIFE IS  NEVER THE SAME AGAIN

I PROMISE TO BE ALWAYS ON YOUR SIDE UNTILL THE FINAL BREATH I TAKE

No matter how old you are or I am

I want to be the best mom to you

YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME

AFRAID OF WHAT TOMORROW MIGHT BRING

We have the worst situations.like Sushmitha in coma(stupor state) from so many years and mom having liver cirhosis and dad dying of pancreatic cancer. Sometimes i feel so depressed. I don't know why. I am scared of future might bring tomorrow.i am having diabetes. my husband has both blood pressure and diabetes. Business wise also lot of problems after demonetisation. I have  started giving meals to our staff in one of our shop. There is lot of  oppositon from mom. may be she is right. I have distanced myself from CHETHANA because now  correspondent Raghunath Shetty is managing very well and he does not need us. Please somebody support. I mean give emotional strength. My Sushmitha  needs me.

CHETHANA MY BREATH MY PASSION

It was a pleasure to be associated with CHETHANA. Now headmistrress of Chethana took away  most of our chilldren. I was in good terms with her. But she duped us.First there was a circular from the government that all children above 25 should not be given admission.There were eight of them. She opened a hostel for some of the children and she sent them to our school. After taking children above 25 to her school she took the children who are coming to our school from her hostel. Then she took all ourchildren nearly 30 to her school. we had already given the names of children for grant. If only she had opened another school without taking our children we would not have minded.Now to handle the situation I resigned and my husband took over the post of president.I HAVE NO REGRETS. When I had the charge I feel I have given myself to Chethana and did my duty unselfishly. I have not betrayed anywhere.

I WANT TO GIVE THE SMILE TO SPECIAL CHILDREN

My husband tells Geetha instead of wearing ornaments you should wear the ornament smile in your face. I know. But it is so difficult for me. When I think of Sushmitha and her condition I cannot smile. I might go to some of the functions but I don't want to mix with anybody.
            But I want to give the special children in Chethana Special school a smile. Last year one person donated dresses. All the children happily went to the stage to get  thier dresses.  Specially a child who cannot talk much came up to me and showed me her dress with a smile on her face. I want bring that smile to every child who is special.

MOM FAILING TO UNDERSTAND ME .

My sisters comes home in the holidays. I love mysister. She has a autistic son which I have already mentioned before. Younger son Insists on taking the medicine and nurse allowed in her presence. Now I heard he takes by himself even when she goes to bring water for medicine. Yesterday the tablets fell and he picked and then gave I heard. All this happens in my absence. When I took this topic with my mother she told me i was watching him. I told her you know nothing about medicine. what name and how much medicine. That too you cannot give 8 year old medicine responsibility. She got angry and then I told my sister about this. She told I will not allow him anymore because someting bad might happen to Sushmitha. Nobody understood my point of veiw. Then I remember two persons who understand me in this world. Dr Pushpa kini and my sister Anitha.

KISIKELIYE MARNA BADA HAI PER KISIKELIYE JINDAGI DENA ISSE BADA HAI

I believe if someone dies for a cause that is great but if someone spends his or her life for somebody it is still great. There are some people who spend their whole lifetime for a cause.

  My sisters son has autism along with hyperactiveness. She has very very difficult time coping with him. He sleeps very less. he wants things in his own way. She is very frusturated. She told me she was living because she cannot die. I admit my child is in coma and at home I have another patient(amma) with me but I have people to help me. I can see she feels very helpless eventhough her husband supports her very much. I want to help her but i can see i cannot do anything.

 when we have sick child at home our every relationship is effected. husband- wife. We cannot give the time we need to other relationships.

      

I WANT TO BE THE BEST DAUGHTER AND BEST MOM

I want to be the best mom and best daughter because at this  point these two relationships need me the most. Being a good mom I cannot manage alone. These physiotherapies, lifting and shifting Sushmitha to give bath and make her stand in order to improve circulation and brushing Sushmitha's teeth nearly three times. I feel personally what a caretaker can gift a patient is good bath which relaxes the patient and also helps to reduce infections. Also giving the standing in order to improve blood circulation. Giving hot (warm) water to drink also helps her to bring out the secretions which are common in bed ridden patients. My favaorite caretaker of Sushmitha Laxmi left the job. She was more than a mother to Sushmitha.  I felt as if a part of me was taken of. But She never understood me or my love for her. But She did her job very nicely and I want to help her in her marriage( part of which I have already done).