EAR HOLE STICHED

Mom went to hospital got herself checked . Everything was okay . so she came home. I had a appointment with Dr Anand kini a pastic surgeon . He had a major surgery. So we had to wait for 2 hours . Sometimes it is a matter of life and death. So I can understand. We have to value human life. Everything else is secondary. I got my ear hole stiched.

Mother hospitalised again

There seems to be no end to moms problem. She had radiation therapy. Then she had water in lungs. Again hospitalised. After getting water removed from her lungs she came home. She came home stayed home for two days .Suddenly today she noticed blood stains when she visited wash room. by after noon after bath again there were blood stains. We wasted no time. Immediately Kavi contacted doctor and he told to come immediately. Now she is in hospital. every time she goes to hospital I always think  will it be the last time I see her? she has to suffer so much. She is a very brave lady.She doesn't cry. How can I live without you mummy? I need you very much.

My world begins and ends with you sushmitha

Sushmitha has cataract in her eyes. Nobody knows how much she can see or how much she can perceive. But as a mother I cannot work like that. If she can see a bit or if she is benefitted a little also that makes a differe.
      I have a picture in mind of little Sushmitha . I cannot bear the the thought that she cannot see. I  will do whatever it takes for her to see. She has cataract in both her eyes. Mom does not seem ok after the radiation therapy. I want the world to stop.My world begins and ends with you Sushmitha.

SUSHMITHA HAS CATARACT OPERATION AND MOM HAD RADIATION THERAPY FOR LIVER CANCER MOM YOU DIDN'T TEACH ME TO LIVE WITHOUT YOU

There seems to be no end to problems. Sushmitha was diagonised to have cataract and since Rotary karkala didn't have all the facilities we got the cataract operation done in Mangalore. Priyanka my daughter in law did not come to see my daughter after the operation nor did she contact me after the operation. I was very hurt. it is only in such a  situation that you realise how a person is. I really love her. actually i loved her more than my son. But it was Anil who stood by me everytime Sushmitha was in hospital.

       Any human being should try to help anybody who is helpless however much you can and you should be honest regarding money dealings. This defines a person I feel. Also a person should be able to forgive others for their mistakes. I may not be nice to people. but if I scold somebody then it is for their own good. I cannot see them going wrong. that is what I am.

        Mom underwent radiation surgery. I told her mom you didn't teach me how to live without you. so please have the operation and get healed. I want you at any cost. SHE IS A FIGHTER.

MY PRECIOUS ANGEL

MY PRECIOUS ANGEL

From the day you were born and the time I held you close

I knew in my joyfull heart you are my precious angel

I love you my precious angel

You are my special LITTLE GIRL

O God please remember it is my little girl's birthday

Memories don't go away

years don't take away the joy you have brought

Or the sadness I feel to see you like this(bedridden)

I miss your voice 

I miss your laughter

O baby, can you hear me?

I hope there is a miracle

Get well soon and we will play

with all your toys and friends all day

You will have so much fun 

I will make sure there is lots of sun

You will chose what to do

My heart still aches with sadness 

MY SILENT TEARS STILL FLOW 

No one really knows 

They say that time is a healer

And life has to go on

BUT MY LIFE IS  NEVER THE SAME AGAIN

I PROMISE TO BE ALWAYS ON YOUR SIDE UNTILL THE FINAL BREATH I TAKE

No matter how old you are or I am

I want to be the best mom to you

YOU MEAN THE WORLD TO ME

AFRAID OF WHAT TOMORROW MIGHT BRING

We have the worst situations.like Sushmitha in coma(stupor state) from so many years and mom having liver cirhosis and dad dying of pancreatic cancer. Sometimes i feel so depressed. I don't know why. I am scared of future might bring tomorrow.i am having diabetes. my husband has both blood pressure and diabetes. Business wise also lot of problems after demonetisation. I have  started giving meals to our staff in one of our shop. There is lot of  oppositon from mom. may be she is right. I have distanced myself from CHETHANA because now  correspondent Raghunath Shetty is managing very well and he does not need us. Please somebody support. I mean give emotional strength. My Sushmitha  needs me.

CHETHANA MY BREATH MY PASSION

It was a pleasure to be associated with CHETHANA. Now headmistrress of Chethana took away  most of our chilldren. I was in good terms with her. But she duped us.First there was a circular from the government that all children above 25 should not be given admission.There were eight of them. She opened a hostel for some of the children and she sent them to our school. After taking children above 25 to her school she took the children who are coming to our school from her hostel. Then she took all ourchildren nearly 30 to her school. we had already given the names of children for grant. If only she had opened another school without taking our children we would not have minded.Now to handle the situation I resigned and my husband took over the post of president.I HAVE NO REGRETS. When I had the charge I feel I have given myself to Chethana and did my duty unselfishly. I have not betrayed anywhere.