GOD WHERE IS JUSTICE IN YOUR COURT

Read about Aruna Shanbhage's passing away after being in coma for 42 years. So much suffering her body must have endured I just cannot imagine.The person responsible for her condition was left free after imprisonment for 7 years only. God where is justice in your court.

GETTING TOO MUCH SLEEP

There is renovation going on the Sri Venkataramana Temple and my husband is one of the committee members of renovation commitee. I didnt go to any of the temple functions because it takes a lot of time. My husband taunted me saying because you don't believe in God these things happen. I told him. God is everywhere and I need not go to temples to please God that is what my mom believed and I believed too. Before Sushmi's coma stage I used to go to temple to sing bhajans and I loved doing so. Now if i leave Sushmi and sing Bhajans I feel god will not like it. our Karma itself our God.
I am getting too much sleep these days.I cannot control my sleep at all.

 

WHAT WILL I DO

There are many changes in our life. My son got married. But Sushmithas condition remains the same.Future looks very scary to me. My husband always so  busy with his social work he is not at all concentrating on business.He is not in the shop at all.why he is not worrying for Sushmitha I don't know.What will I do?

JUNE 23rd MOST UNFATEFUL DAY IN OUR LIFE

Today is the day I cannot forget in my life. Today is the day my Sushmi went in to coma. She went into another world. I   just don't want to share my grief with anybody. My son's marriage is fixed on december 12 th. I got my car exchanged and got a new car. This things does not matter anymore although I am happy for my son. He has almost got the job but not 100 percent.

YOU ARE THE MOST PRECIOUS GIFT GOD HAS EVER GIVEN

I look into your eyes each morning and thank God you are mine. Not only  you are my beginning you are my end of time. I could never have imagined my heart to feel this amount of love and pride you gave me so much to live for, You are the reason I wake up each day, you are what makes my life worth living, You are the most precious gift God has ever given.

ASSURING MOTHER I WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR HER

Mother went for check up once again. Gastro doctor told her she has to take steriods to fight liver problem. But that would increase diabetes. So insulin dosage and number has to be increased. She suddenly looked weak. I assured her that everything would be allright. I would stand by her no matter what the situation is. I am doing everything for Sushmitha and I would do anything and everything for her. I am ready to bath her and wash her and clean her incase she is bed ridden not that she will be. I told her that she has done everything for us. She sacrificed many things. She reared  cows. She stiched dresses and gave the tailoring money to me which I will never forget.Daddy was working in a bank and we were middle class. During my marriage mom went groom searching herself. During my second sisters marriage she gave up her evey jewellery because her marriage took place immediately after mine. After my Child Sushmitha went to coma it was mummy who supported throught. Sometimes she is very frank and very outspoken and sometimes this hurts. But she is very strong woman and may the difficulties she faced single handedly made her srtrong and harsh Even Anitha my sister sent one lakh rupees and told her she would not worryfinancially. Even I told her I would also help her and I did even though she was reluctant to accept any favour. Now it is my turn mummy.

MOM HAVING LIVER CIRRHOSIS AND ME DIAGONISED WITH HAVING DIABETES

There is no end to difficulties we are facing. God is not tired of testing. First mom got sick. She had internal bleeding and high diabetes. when tested she was found to have portal hypotension and liver cirrhosis. She was admitted in hospital. Endoscopy was done. There was slight problem with liver doctors told. Additionally there was portal hypotension. These  were the consequences of having high sugar they told. At home suddenly I was not able to go out. Mom used to cook in the mornings and afternoon. Suddenly I had to prepare breakfast and lunch. Helpers were not co-operative. At this time my husband helped me with cooking because mornings I have duties with Sushmitha which I cannot escape. I start with brushing her teeth. Then doing mouth exercises. I give her coffee orally then followed by giving lollipop and sugarcane to bite. Lollipop is good for tongue movements and sugarcane for teeth and facial  muscles. Then I give her standing for fifteen minutes then I put her on prone which gives hand weight bearing and neck control. Other wise hand muscles start going waste. Then my sister flew down from Hyderabad for a day visit. She tried to help my mother as much as possible. She brought a diabetes check kit. when she tested me I was found to have diabetes. I went to blood clinic and did fasting glucose and three months total blood sugar test AINC and there again I had high sugar. I am very fond of sweets and I don't know how I can live without sweets.