I WANT TO DESTROY THE WHOLE WORLD

God you didn't give me a normal child. Did I complain you ever? Then why did you make her go through so much pain.I hate other children. I dont believe in you anymore.Now I know who cares for me really. Sushmitha used to adore her father. he seems to have no time for her. He is busy in pooja's and he tells it is done for her sake only.Anil seems emotional but he is also busy. My mom also didn't want Sushmitha. But there I was wrong. I went to Mangalore today . I went at 2PM .and came back within 5pm. Now physio Shruthi comes for physio. She gives hot and cold water for stimulation. She makes her sit unaided. With minimal support to head and shoulders so that she aquires shoulder control. She has a bit of swaloowing. So she gives sugar water for taste.Anitha feels this all is going very far in the sense this all is too much for her. so Anitha tells I am selfish so I want her to get well for my sake. But it may not be the same with her. May be she does not want to talk or walk. She might be too tired.So anitha tells her now what is more important is her comfort. Yeah I admit I am selfish. I waznt her. But I want her comfort too. help me maintain balance of both.