That day,

6:15 PM June 23rd, 2009 was the day everything changed for worse!

I got a call from Mom saying Sush had a seizure, I rushed back home and reached by 6:30 to realize she got another one that lasted more than 30 minutes. I gave her the Valium and tried to reach the local Doctors.

I reached the local Hospital and rushed her there, Ambulance did not have oxygen. There she was given Oxygen but they said I might need to go to Manipal as she may require a bigger Hospital.

Anil and My husband reached my side quickly and we were on our way to the Manipal. I cannot remember anything but remember thinking she looked so pale blue..

Dr P was not in that night , she was out of town. Her next in charge got Sush to ICU and they started IV line and oxygen and medications. I don't remember thinking anything , it was a blur.
Besides we had so many hospitalizations in the past that I thought this one would also last couple of days..we would be out.

Then came the shocking news, she was in Coma. My sister called and I cried my heart out.what was happening, why was Sushmitha in Coma..I did everything I could , gave her all the meds on time.why

They told she aspirated into her lungs. She has developed Pneumonia. She was not opening her eyes and was in Status epilpetus. Her Seizures would not stop.

Morning got Dr P and looking at her my heart was relieved. She will do something she always does!! She has saved us before and she will now i thought.

I was still in a daze. Dr P said I need to watch this carefully as excessive medications for her lungs might damage her kidneys. I need to watch this.

She called to sushmitha to move her hands and she lifted her hand the second day. She was still in Coma they said. I knew She was battling her life ,I silently kept talking to her in my mind as we were not allowed inside all the time. Anil took charge of his sisters care. He was by her side 24/7 watching like a big bear , he sent me off on errands Knowing I needed something to do.

The 3 d day she started blinking her eyes. But it was not a happy ending. She also started thrashing around and started moaning like she was in great pain. we could not restrain her and she ended with bloody legs and we had to put her in a bandage.

Then they noticed blood on her catheter. Some one whispered there was internal bleeding.
Could it be her kidneys, I had no idea. I was numb with Shock of it all. She had tubes everywhere, she had IV lines and Catheter. She was given nebulization constantly. They also came started suctioning out saliva as she could not swallow. She was still on oxygen.

I started spending time with my sister on phone and sitting near by baby watching her. Eat and shower and then back to her side. Anil took care of me and her both , for a change he was like a parent. He was only 21 and acted so mature for his age.

Nothing changed in a week except both me and Anil developed back pain sitting by her side watching and changing her. ICU does not allow anyone to sit and we did not have proper seating. we were glad to be allowed inside as many would not allowed inside.

Sush was very Agitated and had constant jerks , twitching her legs and hands. when we held her hands and soother her she was a little calmer. Se also started moaning , meaningless mumble.

It was so hard to hear her moaning and twitching non Stop. Some days she would not sleep nights and even tore at her Iv lines.